Suicide

Date: 7/6/2016

I was at a school (not my school) on a very large tennis court with a couple of girls from school, but I only remembered M specifically. There were PE classes going on. I and the couple girls I was with decided to commit suicide using a gun at the same time. I went to my bag to get something and suddenly realised it was time to shoot myself. I slowly felt myself falling out of conciousness, but without any pain. I woke up in my house, and nobody could see or hear me, so I though I was a ghost, but didn't really want to accept it. My stepdad was there (he doesn't live with me) and I was standing in front of him. As he walked out the front door, he sort of hesitated, as if he had sensed me there. I felt very lonely, sad, regretful, and scared, but it wasn't a nightmare. I snapchatted M, with the caption can anyone see you? haha. Earlier that day, I saw my cat who was actually lost.