therapy hotel

Date: 3/10/2021

i was on a trip and we were staying in this kind of nice hotel it was like a weird half house half hotel and i had a really nice room it was super big with 2 double beds although it was just me at first and the first night i put the projector light on and i kept finding scales everywhere like weighing scales so i tried to weigh myself but i couldnt stay balanced it was like i was either floating or just falling forward but it wouldnt register me properly one minute i was barely a feather and the next i was 1000lbs. i watched some tv and went to bed that night and then the next day there were some kind of therapy activities so i think the trip might have been a weird residential group therapy thing lmfao but i wanted to leave but they wouldnt let anyone. i went back up to my room after and i had a roommate now and for some reason the people running the thing wouldnt let me use the bathroom in my room?? and the projector light was weird and there were so many light switches i just wanted to turn them off because it was still light out but i was running around this room trying to find them but they all controlled a tiny light each. when i was done i looked out of the window and thought sbout how the pool would look way better in the summer lol. i went out to another bathroom since mine was off limits to have a shower and when i came back my roommate had started a party in my room which was banned but idgaf im not a snitch so i hung around for a while and drank a bit then slipped out while it was busy and tried to break out and i was running around all these carpeted stairs trying to find a way out but it was like a maze and people ducked their head out to see but minded their own business and then i climbed up and realised there was a ledge and a window i could climb out of but when i stepped onto the bannister of the stairs it broke and i got down and every one below it broke in the same place going down and down and down so i ran again and i found a huge door and i thought id have to break it but it was just open so i ran out and it was morning again so i ran but i ran into the car park 🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️ and got caught by a staff but they werent mad but escorted me back and when i looked around i saw train tracks in one direction and bus links in another and i was so mad i didnt just go that way. then i went back up to my room and it was trashed and i knew i would have to pretend it wasnt mine so i just moved my stuff and went downstairs where there was a huge speech going on and more therapy. this is as much as i can remember but im fairly sure more went on after this? idk a lot of this can be explained by life in general for me rn. my weight and body image issues have been really bad lately, starting new group therapy next week, always trying to escape my life and whats going on but being stuck and dragged back lmao. i found it interesting !!