Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 9/2/2018
By ThatKitKat
TW: Rape, sexual assault, bodily functions, knife play I was at a teenage boy's house, he was maybe 17-20, he lived with his family and had a friend or brother roommate,seemed more like a friend. The two guys were creepy as heck but I was there from my own will. They were both tall skinny and lanky. They all had American accents, and the boys sounded whiny. The main boy (I never caught their names) had invited me over, I didn't know him but he made a video online, it was a fan made music video, animated, of a song I liked, but it was an 18+ video with an anime furry man (?) who could multiply and he was singing and moving to the beat but he was naked and some copies were performing sexual acts to themselves and other selves. One was in the back cracking eggs to the beat on the bed. Apparently I had seen this video because I liked the song and I saw it in the suggestions from another fan made video for the same song that was super cute couple orientated. There was a young couple and they were on a dodgy bus with not many people on it driving through mountains with loads of pretty fields of wild flowers and grasses. They were super close to each other and smiled out the window and to each other, probably starting a new life. So he knew I had seen the creepy furry video and out of courtesy I accepted his invitation and now I'm in a bungalow house in his bedroom with his less creepy friend. The main guy had a mound of black emo hair on his head that was backcombed everywhere except his fringe that covered half his face. The friend also had an emo ish cut, covering some of his eye with his blonde hair but it was brushed neatly instead of being a mess. The main one stared at me like a new toy. I felt very awkward with him, but there was a girl in the house that he messed around with a little friskily so I assumed that was a girlfriend so I lowered my guards. We talked, all three of us, the girl sometimes flitting in and out of the room. Then the guy who invited me came closer. He took off his shirt, he was very pale and had no body hair, he was also thinner than I thought with no sign of abs. (this is just for reference not a personal preference or non preference). He sat right next to me on the floor, he leaned in so his bare chest touched my body that was still secure under my clothes. I naturally leaned away. He didn't get the hint and put his hand up my back. Ok I'm out. I stood up and looked to his friend that had a passive look as if to say "I'm sorry I know your uncomfortable, he's just like this" He stood up beside me and wrapped his arms around my waist. I kept looking at his friend that had a sad, disgusted expression. THEN SAVE ME YOU IDIOT. I don't know how dangerous this man is. I just let him hug me I can deal with this. He clawed a little at my trousers but still I can deal. Then the most uncomfortable pain I've ever felt emitted from inside my butt. Omg he's inside me WHAT THE HECK. He pulled out as quickly as he entered and it's so embarrassing but him doing that made me poop onto the floor. My God why. My butt is super sore for having my anal virginity stolen with very little care for how. The two boys were silent. I apologized over and over. I should have been angry, he just raped me like what the hell why are you feeling sorry? I run out of the room looking for the bathroom. I find another bedroom but it had a dining table in the corner where the dad was reading a newspaper. He didn't care to look at who entered. I lock the door and pushed a thin light wardrobe against the door. I found toilet wipes in the kitchen bedroom and cleaned myself up. But suddenly the creep kicked open the door slightly so his arm could get through. I push on the door. I didn't want to hurt him but his arm was in the way. I decided to sit on the floor by the door so he could push it open further. I looked to the dad who flicked to the next page. Then I felt something wet brush through my hair past my jaw and retreat, and then touch the side of my face again and retreat. I look back and he has his penis out trying to get enough contact with my skin to get off. I back away from him. YOU MADE ME POOP ON YOUR FLOOR AND NOW YOU'RE DOING THIS???? He breaks through the small barricade and I push past him running into his room and using anything to try to stop him from entering, desk, chairs, everything except the bed his friend was still sitting quietly on. I apologized to him again from the incident, the floor was clean now so I think he cleared the mess. He said it was ok, that I couldn't help it, and he was sorry. The guy broke through halfway again. He had clean cut ginger hair but was the same guy. I screamed for him to stop, I almost broke down crying but held it in, a few uncontainable tears streamed down my cheeks. His friend stood behind me in defense but said nothing. It was enough for him to stop beating down the door. He gave me the offer of me being in control. I accepted gladly. I can prevent any more sexual frustration being carried out on me. He slid into the room and gave me a small cameo pocket knife. He showed his own. Then he has the emo hair back, but it's neon blue, he's laying on the bed. A Tumblr account I follow called corpsekitten (she's an 18+ Tumblr just a warning) comes and sits on the bed and he gives her his knife. She starts brushing the knife up and down her face and neck down to her chest, I've seen this on a few blogs, people get off from having a blade so dangerously brushed against their skin. He must enjoy it too. He was in subspace, so he was completely at my will. I'm not a great dominant but this meant he would stop chasing me and could never strike out or pin me down to assault me so this was heaven. I had to look like I knew what I was doing. He said I could do it to corpse too, so I brushed a knife against her cheek as softly as if I was caressing her with my fingers. She closed her eyes as if it was the most romantic thing ever done to her. Uh..... Ok I felt very uncomfortable. I saw some bondage stuff on the bed and decided to use it. I put a thick black leather collar around his neck, it had loops to attach rope otlr other leather equipment to it. He and corpse and the friend were playing cards together while I looked for solid places to tie down this asshole. I found one, which could work for an arm so he could keep one free for his game. First though knife play. I want to not feel awkward. I tried the same thing with him but the tip dug in slightly at his cheek. I threw this off as being intentional and dipped the blade in just under the skin either side of his nose trying not to draw blood. He looked panicked but in subspace you have less inhibitions. He obviously hasn't tried this. I said sadistically but in a cute voice "I'm giving you freckles" and smiled at him before going to the next side. Small beads of blood appeared on the next few stabs, obviously I got too cocky. I woke up uncomfortable, grossed out, and angry at him and myself
AI generated interpretation This dream contains very disturbing and alarming themes related to sexual assault, rape, and power dynamics. It is important to note that dreams often draw upon our subconscious thoughts, fears, and desires, and as such, this dream may be processing deep-seated anxieties or unresolved issues related to personal boundaries, safety, control, and autonomy. The dream begins with you being invited to a creepy teenager's house after watching a disturbing video online. This could symbolize a sense of curiosity or intrigue that leads you into a potentially dangerous or uncomfortable situation. The presence of the anime furry character in the video performing sexual acts may represent a blurred boundary between innocence and corruption in your subconscious mind. The main boy in the dream displays signs of predatory behavior and disregard for personal boundaries, as he invades your personal space and ultimately assaults you in a violent and violating manner. The lack of consent and respect for your autonomy in this dream scenario may reflect a fear of being taken advantage of or controlled by others in real life. The presence of the friend in the dream who appears passive and complicit in the assault could symbolize feelings of betrayal or powerlessness in the face of danger. The father figure reading the newspaper and ignoring your distress could represent a lack of protection or support from authority figures in times of crisis. Your actions in the dream, such as barricading yourself in a room and taking control of the situation by using a knife for self-defense, may indicate a subconscious desire to regain power and agency in the face of adversity. The act of asserting dominance over the main boy through knife play and bondage could be a manifestation of a need for empowerment and self-protection. Overall, the dream seems to reflect deep-seated fears of violation, vulnerability, and loss of control. It is important to acknowledge the emotional impact of such a distressing dream and consider seeking support from a therapist or counselor to explore and process these intense feelings in a safe and supportive environment.