trapped with eleven

Date: 8/14/2016

I was in this place, we were forced to be this mans workers. It was a a weird shop- like he sold things so people could kill themselves and others freely and the man was horrifying. At one point he was trying to teach me not to get too close to the saw but I jumped down to it to be cool, he turned it on and I jumped out in a panic. He cut my foot really badly by doing it and he didn't feel bad at all bc he was smiling because he knew it would teach me. I had to get stitches. It was a place where the owner would molest it's new workers- he did it to me when I was a kid. Sometimes still now. He would take pictures of people with no shirt and he raped me when I was little I guess. (I was me but I was completely different) Then this girl- eleven- but not her- was forced into the program. She was scared after he took topless photos of her, she walked out of the room for her first seconds on our side and I pulled her into a massive hug. She was shaking and I kind of cried, she didn't know why I was hugging her but she liked the hug. She hated him so much we would all hide her from him- we would say she was in the bathroom because she didn't feel well. She was his favorite "toy" at the moment and nobody hid me when I was his favorite "toy" so I hid her. She was clingy, she would grab my shirt and try to get as close as possible but I was focusing on where to go before he saw us. So I kept on pushing her off so I could focus, she got scared and said like "there's a hole in your shirt! I can't grab onto you!" And she was really scared and crying. I found a place we could go, a place outside with a massive fence (a fence covered every corner of the "house" except the store entrance which was in a different part) Once we got outside in the place I hugged her, she clung to me and sniffled and stuff. I felt so bad for her and I loved her. At one point she sat on top of me and we talked and laughed. At one point I heard shuffling and I knew it was the blinds behind us so I grabbed her and I pulled her down so she was flat on top of me. I remember being really attracted to her, I wanted to kiss her so badly when she was that close to me I really liked her. She was so close and I could feel her breath and her lips rubbing accidentally against mine. She was confused on why I did that but I whispered to her that he was watching us. I tried to get as low as possible so he couldn't see us. We stayed there for a long time until we went back inside. For some reason at some point the man left- and we all were so happy. Me and eleven decided to run- we did. We ran by a high school and down into a neighborhood and we were laughing mad so happy we were out. But then I remembered we left the others behind, still under the control of the people who were still there and the others were scared to leave. So we went back, when we did this old lady took eleven and eleven was happy like I didn't think anything of it because she was happy. Then the lady tried to take me and I just had this horrible feeling. I started screaming for eleven to escape with me and to grab the others to run but they couldn't. So I ran. I thought if I could escape and disappear I could sneak back and sneak the rest of them out. I ran out, the lady chased me. She was a good runner and I am especially slow in my dreams so I ran like a baby. I had asthma apparently so it was hard. (I woke up at this point with my heart pounding so fucking fast it was scary) I was running for miles but she was right where with other men to grab me. One point my heart just gave out and I collapsed. I fell and they rushed me home, giving me CPR so keep me breathing. When I got to the place they strapped me down and started shocking me to wake up. Eleven and all the others (Bradley, Sloan, Ethan) all watched as eleven sobbed when they pulled a sheet over my head. But one doctor hit me hard in the chest and I bolted up and gasped for air. They stuck a tube down my threat immediately so I could relax and not have to worry about breathing. I fought it though so they numbed me. Eleven was so scared and sad.