Guilty pleasure

Date: 2/11/2020

Kaylee had come over to talk and stuff but then I started to put my arms around her at the end of my bed which sort of slowly escalated things. I kissed her neck once then she suggested we play a game called first one to be satisfied or pull away loses and so we kind of kissed back and forth for little bit me doing my best to keep a straight face until I just gave up and said, that I hate this game and just want to kiss you. And so we did but then I started feeling really self conscious about my kissing ability, like what If I’m not good enough or I’m just doing it to awkwardly. I slowly pulled her down beside me still kissing my hands started to wander a bit and Eventually they made it under her shirt. When I realized what I was doing I paused for a half second to ask if it was ok, to which she said yes. After a fee more minutes of kissing and being close she sat up and we started talking about other stuff. I can’t remember how exactly it progresses but she comes and sits on my lap facing me arms around my neck legs squeeze my chest which I’ve always thought was super hot. I kiss her again but then I start to feel a boner coming on so I pop the question. So I don’t have a condom, is there any chance you do? I don’t quite remember her reaction but she says that she’s broke and hasn’t been able to get any recently. That puts a damper on things. For some reason we move out to my front yard and continue to cuddle. My mom comes out for some reason which is kind of embarrassing and I end up standing up and Kaylle runs off to the side yard. yet again kiling the mood. Its broad daylight so I have no idea why we chose my front yard anyway. I like awkwardly answer my mom’s question what ever it was about and the Quinn shows up with a box of donuts. I remember the donuts being really weirdly aranged there were 12 in total but six big ones and six little ones but they were grouped together with one of the opposite size. Having quinn show up also felt kind of weird because I don’t consider us a thing yet (we’re still getting to know each other but it still put a pang of guilt). I say goodbye to quinn and thank her for the donuts and then find Kaylee behind the fence. We talk for a little longer both still pretty horny but then my mom come out yet again. This time I just bluntly ask if she could go get me some condoms. Which was really fucking awkward but hey it might work. I don’t remember if I got a response but I went back to Kaylee and asked her her thoughts on mutual masturbation. She was like yeah I guess I’m down for it. My pants were already off so I started (how the fuck am I supposed to describe jerking off without being weird) I asked again if she was enjoying it before I decided to start writing down this dream. There was a moment that I realized I was dreaming and remembered one of the cardinal sins of lucid dreaming and that sex will wake you up so no orgasms! (Said in the “no capes”voice) I also had watched an episode of netflix show Sex Ed the night before so that probably played into this whole thing.