Sisters Death

Date: 9/30/2019

Well you know when you cry in your dreams you’re crying outside of them too. I had a dream my sister died and I didn’t know till a family cook out. I had just been with her that night then my dad told me the news. I remember seeming like I didn’t care before the event. And My sister has a very specific chair she’d sit in. I remember walking around like I was ok then I saw the chair. I sat down in it where my grandma, my mom and my dad were sitting. I sat down for about 20 seconds before bursting into full on tears standing back up. They knew I wasn’t ok and everyone rushed to me to calm me down. I know I went up to my grandma and she says “it’s ok neasha, she’ll be ok sweety but why does it hurt you so much.” I remember I couldn’t speak much through the dream but I managed to say “because I won’t see her anymore.. and it hurts” she comforted me then everything around me went weird she came to me as a ghost. I looked over saw her behind my dad. I looked at her and said “mimi..” she was happy that I actually loved her as much as I claimed. She said to me “neasha it’s ok.. it’s my fault for talking reckless to these niggas and going clubbing to much. But I don’t want you to be like this. I tell you what, I never let you do it so I am now.” She got on the ground and let me playing in her hair. I woke up with tears and it felt so real I almost started crying again