Times of the Past

Date: 10/20/2017

I've been having some dreams lately.. like my deepest roots and not so fondest times. There was this one dream, my mum accidentally cracked my phone. There was a line across it, it wasn't that bad but the line was visible. I got angry, and I think I told her to fix it or pay for it but she said she wouldn't. I got real angry and slammed the phone on the table. See, the screen wasn't even that bad earlier but now it was actually pretty fucked up, and this happened why? Because I was not able to contain my anger. As a kid, I used to get really angry and mad.. alot. My anger was like a short circuit, just like my dad. This reminded me of a memory as a kid. I was angry at something, and as usual I needed to lash out at something to release my anger so I picked up this toy truck that I had and broke it. I started to cry after that because I really liked that truck. It's weird, now that I'm losing these negative aspects of myself in reality, they're occuring in my dreams. What does that mean? anyone who has an idea on what this could possibly mean is welcome to comment. :)