warehouse mansion party

Date: 12/6/2016

Arrive at the party, with some friends and my sister, and lose them. Wandering around in different rooms. Some have big dance floors and she's. I running tho Joey v. He tells me what the genre is called. I can't remember it now, but it was some sort of kiddie techno. Some rooms are small with sexy and drugs, sickly green light. Hard to escape. Keep running into my old enemy Caroline, and my ex Cheyenne she is CeeJay in the dream, and is very popular. Sometimes they are separate and CeeJay is very kind and loving to me. Sometimes they are together, and she totally ignores me. Outside, trying to figure out how to get home. Meteors start shooting down from the sky and landing in the distance. We are all wowed. Gaping as these things are landin the sky is red, and the landings cause explosions. We are lying on the grass to watch them. A stranger explains that astronomers knew that there were two groups of asteroids on a collision course with earth. They weee coming from different directions, and the scientists couldn't predict what would happen. They thought the asteroids might all get caught in our at mosphere. Forming a ring around the planet, blocking out the sun. I could see this happen. We both thought the way it worked out wasn't so bad. Then tiny meteorites. Shiny black, like hematite began shoots no down around us. Both quickly and in slow motion. They start getting bigger and harder to dodge, because of their size and the number of them. It is beautiful Terrified and awed, we scream and roll to avoid being hit. I go inside, I want to go home, but don't have a way. Caroline says she is drunk and won't take me. Cheyenne is on the steps, all dressed in grey. Caroline and she are hugging. Sickened, I watch from afar and run over. Caroline waffling on whether she will give me a ride. They break their embrace, and Car wanders off. CeeJay leans into me from the steps She says "and now you" she stares into my eyes. Expressing everything. Her love and despised of me. She thinks I am pathetic, but says she will take me home. I lose her outside. Start trying to walk home in the snow. An old English man walks with me, alsays he can accompany me. We see Caroline and CeeJay sled past us, down , to the left and behind. I realize again she never loved me. We come across a small child's car. The Englishman offers to drive. The car is small, purple and orange. We have some back and forth about whether we both will fit. Finally he starts to drive, I grab hold of the roll bars from the back, and swing hum squeeze myself in. I enter a hypnagogic state where I know I am in bed there is a bright space in front if my eyes. Faces are emerging there. All white men. Some misshapen, morphing, not fully formed. They are in a bright white screen area in the center of my vision. He drops me in the Lawrence student ghetto. Things are much worse than I remember. Looks like a war. Red spray paint on open doors. So much violence everywhere. Outside, inside. Shocking racism. I follow a large black girl to try to find my way home. And I see the horrible way she is treated. The black kids are chased and beaten until they get to a safe space. They're they are only mocked and jeered at. I try to stand up for them, but I am outnumbered, and this is not my world. How can I help? And How can I get out of here are going through my head.