Bathhouse

Date: 2/16/2021

It felt like a sort of grand opening. There a long line behind me. I was next in line and stood at the threshold of the business. I looked inside with amazement. I felt and knew in those moments when my turn had come that moment would change me. I knew I would not be the same timid person I walked in as. I felt afraid and could feel uneasiness my stomach, fear of the unknown, but also reveled in what was to come. I was so excited that I hardly noticed the transaction take place to allow me entrance. They handed me a bathrobe and slippers and pointed out the direction I would go in. I was in a trance, it felt almost as if I was on drugs. It was probably due to the lighting inside this business. It was dark but there was still enough light to make things out. The lighting was red and blue everywhere. It looked like the place people would make drug deals in movies. That's the thought that made me both scared and propelled me forward with curiousity of knowing anything could happen now that I had surrendered to this fate. I've always been known as a saint of sorts amongst family and friends, because I fiend not for sexual experiences like most youth. This came to mind as I walked through the never ending hallway with many openings throughout. Each room was different, some bigger and some smaller. Some had men leaned up against the entrance, others had men laying naked on beds inside. Again the blue and red lighting made everything looks seductive and hypnotic. I kept walking not yet confident to walk into anyone's taken room and kept going until I found a actual multi shower area. I slipped in and started bathing. I don't remember much after this. But I remember staying pretty late, until most rooms started emptying out. At that point I walked through again to see if anyone remained. At the very far end of the hall I found one last person. His room was spacious and lit a soft pink tone. I walked in curiously. He welcomed me over to him and told me to lay with him. And so i did, as I had nothing better to do and I guess my timid was had finally worn off. I asked what he was doing here still and he motioned to a camera. He was a camera he told me. I stood up, unaware that there had been a camera on me, on us. I immediately thought of everyone that knew nothing of me and all my shame and timidness came rushing back. I tried to politely leave but did so abruptly and decided to leave.