my jealousy is showing

Date: 12/25/2019

so i was in class with victor and some other people, we were talking and what not but victor was being strangely distant. not the “i have a gf and can’t be touchy with u” type of distant. more of the “i’m dropping you :)” type (if that makes sense) i confronted him about it and it led to an argument about how he was nEVER READY to be with me, and how i shouldn’t have expected anything from him. idk i don’t remember much of it, but i know we clarified that i was his side hoe. and that if it didn’t work out between him and his gf he’d come back to me. but that just made me say “fuck you” and walked out when the bell rang. but for some reason as i walked down the hall to my next class and saw victor walking down the stairs, i said to myself,,,, ima follow this bitch. and so i did. i followed victor but i needed an excuse if he saw me, so i had a pot with me and i was carrying it around as if i had somewhere to be. so he was waiting down stairs in the 600s hall for his girl, and SHE was outside the hallway waiting for him (which i found kinda funny lmao, i was gonna tell her but i didn’t) but she spotted me, so i rushed down the stairs past her, into the 600s hall, and i said to victor “i-i cant be seen here, HERE” and i gave him the pot and ran upstairs like a maniac. anyway, the dream changes and i’m at home now but i have no clue wtf is going on. there’s an intruder in my house, long story short on this one, i slice his head off and look at him straight in the eyes as he says to me “ i’ve seen the things you do, the things you wish for at night, the things you wish would just go away”and it scared me so much i pushed his eyes into his sockets and smashed the head into the wall into it was completely unrecognizable. i cried as i threw the head down the stairs. i woke up feeling empty and sad.