Giving birth

Date: 3/17/2021

So I was pregnant and decided to have a home birth. My mom was my doula and instead of a pool, we just used the bathtub which I’m sure in real life isn’t nearly as comfortable. But I was fine. My brother was there too but he obviously was waiting outside the room. I was in labour and my mom decided it’s time and takes a scalpel and slices my belly open. It didn’t hurt or anything which is bullshit lol. She gets the baby then I’m just sitting there holding my belly together like ok put it back together now. So then she says we need to let the stuff fall out and I’m scared like I don’t want too much to fall out. So I let go and blood and gunk come out and she’s says that’s good so I hold it back together again. My brother comes in to see the baby but I’m only concerned with my mom stitching me back up so I can stop worrying. She comes over to stitch me and lets me know I have cancer. For reference, my mom had cancer after I was born and spent the first year of my life in and out of the hospital and going through radiation therapy so my dad took care of me because she was obviously too sick and tired. I was like “um what?” And she was so calm like it’s ok and just repeated I had cancer and that we could set up an appointment. Then I was at my cousin’s house who has a two year old boy and I had my son with me who was about 1 at this point and I was healthy and we were just hanging out.