I'm a Psychopath

Date: 3/5/2018

In my dream I was in a very fancy home which is not my current one and I didn't have the same parents I have, it was like I was a lab experiment. I had a brother who was the successful experiment and I was like a failure, and I just wanted to be like him... he was teaching me how to be human, and showing me how to practice human emotions. And he taught basic human games like hide and seek but if he found me he would cut a tally mark into my stomach. Eventually I grew up in my dream to have a perfect body all the cut marks from out games had been completely healed and I went to a school that seemed to be for mutants. Except even among them I was treated as an outcast but my brother he fit in well but he seemed to have a crush on me, which in my dream was not weird to me it was as if I didn't understand that it was wrong but he did and he took advantage of that. Finally I was taking a bath and he just walked in on me and pulled me out of the tub (which I thought was normal) and I was covered in bubbles so it didn't matter, but he threw me out into the street and told me to kill her. At first I didn't know who he meant.. but it was like I had a GPS system in my head and I started running naked, everyone was staring at me and checking me out but I didn't feel embarrassed. I found her delivering a speech a huge multitude it was like a cult and they were her followers and I gravbed her by the wrist and pulled her away. She didn't really react other than let out a groan as I tackled her and wrestled her to the floor and it was as if he cult didn't even notice she was gone. I wrapped my hands around her neck and started choking her, and she didn't move like she wanted me to kill her. But after a while I realized I wasn't doing anything and she pushed me off easily. She touched me and it sent a shock through my body but I wasn't going to give up I had to kill her. I wrapped my arms around her neck and she still did nothing, but this time I twisted her neck and it snapped. Her body fell limp on the floor and when I looked down the girls head had been decapitated. I started walking away with no reaction on my face despite being covered in blood no one questioned me. I simply went him and finished my bath and my brother nodded in my direction as an acknowledgement.

AI generated interpretation In analyzing your dream, it is important to note that dreams often serve as a reflection of one's subconscious thoughts, emotions, fears, desires, and experiences. The recurring theme of feeling like a failure and wanting to be like your successful brother could symbolize feelings of inadequacy, jealousy, and a desire for validation or acceptance in waking life. The brother representing a mentor figure teaching you how to be human and showing you human emotions may suggest a longing for guidance, connection, or understanding of social norms and behavior. The game of hide and seek with the consequence of tally marks being cut into your stomach could represent a fear of punishment or criticism for not conforming to societal expectations or norms. It may also reflect a sense of self-harm or internalized guilt for perceived failures or flaws. The transition to a school for mutants where you are treated as an outcast may symbolize feelings of alienation, isolation, or being perceived as different or abnormal by others. The dynamics with your brother, including the inappropriate behavior and taking advantage of your confusion, may suggest a complex relationship with authority figures or mentors in your life. The scene where you are commanded to kill the girl could represent a sense of powerlessness, aggression, or unresolved conflict within yourself. The lack of reaction from the cult followers and the girl's passive response could indicate feelings of being overlooked, unheard, or unnoticed despite taking drastic actions. The shocking realization of decapitating the girl and walking away without emotion or consequence may reflect a disconnect between your actions and their impact on others. It could also suggest a detachment from your emotions or a struggle to process intense feelings of anger, violence, or control. Overall, this dream may be an expression of inner turmoil, inner conflicts, and unresolved issues related to identity, relationships, power dynamics, and acceptance. It could be beneficial to explore these themes further in therapy or self-reflection to gain insight into your subconscious thoughts and emotions.