The brothel

Date: 1/28/2018

Ever since I was let’s say, assaulted two years ago and kept letting him “assault” me out of fear. I’ve had a reoccurring dream about a brothel. The brothel is run by Thomas (let’s call him that) in these dreams I will always relive what happened in various rooms of the brothel. Each room is a different time he hurt me. it is always a terrible dream where I relive my trauma all over again and wake up paralyzed or tears eyed. I’ve recently cut all ties with Thomas after he started stalking me and showing up at my college. He would talk about his devotion to me and I’m now fearful for my safety after severing the tie. In this dream I relived every single time he touched me, I went through the entire brothel. Each room a different time. Each room matched perfectly to what happened in the waking world. I was even in physical pain in these dreams. I scrubbed my clothes, the floor and my skin just as I have in real life. But what was different was I shut the doors behind me when I left. After reliving the most recent trauma I shut the door and made my way to the front exit. Thomas was nowhere to be found and I walked out. When I woke up I was ready eyed and shook quietly and my girlfriend sleepily pulled me into her chest to try to get me to go back to sleep.