>:^(

Date: 5/18/2016

- i was doing homework and once i finished it, i got really upset and pissed off for some reason - when my parents asked me what we should eat, i didnt even reply bc i was too mad - they started teasing me about what kind of books i read (mostly philosophical, books that deal w/ life issues and stuff) and said that i should stop reading/writing books and watching movies that are so "life-encouraging" (i'm not sure what this means). i was only even more pissed bc those things meant a lot to me and they were the only way to cope with my depression. but i was mainly pissed bc they didn't understand. they started telling me do i even fight my own fights (still i have no idea...) and i was like "all my life i've been benched" and they thought i was pathetic for that. - i was so close to breaking every we had in our house but then my parents gave me my anxiety pills to calm me down