puppies

Date: 5/28/2018

I had a dream about Jenney again. it was just past sunset at my house. beginning to get dark. I was in my backyard and a cute dog appeared before my eyes. I can't remember what it looked like at the moment but it was cute. maybe brown. I was facing my room standing just before the steps. jenney steps out from my room, back lit from the lights. she looked happy. I think. she explained to me she got a new dog (to be happy perhaps). all the sudden there were 2 dogs. one of the dogs kept licking me and it was cute. even cuter than than the dog before. I started feeling sad because I was thinking why would she get a dog when she already has a dog. now that I'm awake I realized her dog Tarzan died quite a while ago. maybe subconsciously I am thinking about this because I went through my old hard drives and found our old photos. they show a wide range of jenneys overly expressive personality. I remember the sad photo I took of jenney crying of her standing on the dirt in her mother's backyard while looking at Tarzan's dead body. anyways back to the dream. I thought jenney was messed up for getting another dog when she already had a dog (for some reason I thought her existing dog wasn't Tarzan). i was then out in the backyard by the gate and All the sudden a ton of dogs, one by one appeared before me in my backyard. this became a giant puppy party. some of the dogs weren't cute. In fact some were ugly as shit. alien like with long banana shaped heads. sometimes even purple. as scary as some of them looked, I wasn't scared. I felt like I had seen them before in another dream even though i didn't realize I was on a dream. it felt like that feeling when you see someone who has physics deformities and you force yourself to be cool and not make a big deal about you noticing it or affecting you in anyways. now that I'm awake this reminds me of the puppy party we had at Carmen's house when I was in high school with Tarzan, bubba, kitty, and Bibble. I felt a wide range of emotions during this dream. happy to see jenney. sad after seeing jenney. scared because there were so many dogs and I didn't understand. jenney seemed further away and I had to play with dogs. I woke up. Jenney replied to an Instagram message of me wishing her good luck with finals. maybe I dreamed about her because I messaged her last night or maybe I dreamed about here because I woke up to turn off an alarm and saw that she replied and was surprised because jenney is trying to ignore me. I slept late last night and the day before. for some reason I can't sleep in that much. 7 hours max. and that's with being sore from the gym. I'm worried because the last 2 days I dreamed about jenney. I didn't log it yesterday though and just got this app to log this. I don't want to think about her anymore because I know she doesn't think about me. until the next time. El. Psy. Kongroo.