maybe melatonin induced hallucinations?

Date: 10/1/2019

so i just recently got these new melatonin gummies which i’ve made a habit of taking before bed. they’re meant for adults and im babey (read: 17) so this might be why i felt weird. but i was laying in bed for a real long time, not really sleeping, but vividly hallucinating my thoughts for a while. like i was awake and i knew i was because my cat was sleeping on my bed and it was uncomfortable to find a position that wouldn’t bother him. it was super weird because most of my thinking was SUPER incomprehensible, and i knew it was but i didn’t know why. it was like someone was telling me a story about something that had like 20 different stories coming off of it and i think this was honestly as close as i’ve came to like, understanding the chaos of the universe or something. it was like being high but without the fun sleepiness and more of the “i don’t know what is happening to my brain”ness. i’ve felt this way a little bit on other nights but not as much as last night so it was really strange. i might have even been asleep?