Not fair

Date: 7/7/2019

I’m standing in line at kroger, and the woman checking me out is not happy with me since I don’t have as many items as everyone else. I know that this store is about to go out of business since our president is closing all stores that he hasn’t made himself unless they’re extremely popular. I feel bad, but I also have a store where I sell all kinds of random things to provide for my family, since I have two sisters heading into college who won’t be able to pay unless my store stays open. I end up leaving my items for someone else because I feel too awful to checkout, and I sneak through a back door to get to my store, which is apparently connected to this one. I run the store with luke and my cousin joey. When i walk in, joey is crying and sitting in a wheelchair. I immediately ask him what happened, and he says, “the police came. They took everything from me.” I know that he means they quite literally took the saws they carry around and cut off most of his limbs, so I start crying and ranting about the police and how shitty they are. When i look up from joey, our windows are boarded up. I get scared and run to the back room, where luke is boarding up the rest of our windows. I start screaming at him asking why he’s doing that, because only closing businesses board up their windows. He turns around and says, “they offered me a job at city hall.” I start freaking the hell out and I’m yelling, “just you? When? What about me? What about joey?” Luke basically ignores me and tells me he needed that job, and he didn’t know what to tell me. I tell him thats not fair, because we were in this together. He laughs at that, and he says, “you were the only one that thought that.” I don’t remember it in detail, but he gives me this speech while i start trying to tear the boards off about how these other people will help him and staying here is too dangerous and how he just can’t live like this anymore, and i have to understand that. He keeps telling me not to blame myself and he’s trying to act sincere, but I’m literally so angry with him that i get too upset to stay asleep, and i wake up, angry as all hell, and start crying.