fourth log

Date: 5/3/2018

(there's a twist) key points I remember: - my dad (who I haven't seen in almost a year or talked too, I've reached out but never got replies. but miss so badly but our family is complicated) -dad called me to coordinate a day for me to get my step brother. (current wife's son a young teen) -he wanted to cheat and go out with a woman secretly and me spend time with the son so he won't notice. -I agreed, just happy to get a call from him (think I did because I want him in my life so badly) (plus his wife is crazy bi polar and sick, never leaves the hotel house they live at, and he's got his crap so like, his life sucks. ) - not anymore big things: buildings, driving, trees, downtown -feelings I remeber: every feeling except sad the twist? MY FUCKING DAD SENT ME A TEXT after me trying to call and text him with no response, HE FUCKING TEXTED ME, and after the 1 time I dream of talking to him..