Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 5/16/2023
By baburubān
In my dream I had been a part of this online community of people who wanted to consenually kidnap/be kidnapped. After talking to some guy I arranged to be taken on a certain date and area. I kept it a secret because I was embarrassed, but also didn't know how to tell my loved ones "hey I'm just gonna mysteriously disappear for a weekend don't call the police thanks." So I just kinda prepared for it privately. And on the day of I was running a bit late getting ready, (my house was deconstructed for some reason so it was difficult taking a shower and all) and when I got there he kinda tossed me in the trunk and I got to think about what I kinda got myself into. I was anxious that I needed to turn find my phone off, as I didn't want police getting involved, and I hoped that my loved ones wouldn't care that I was just gone for a few days. We ended up at his place which was just a condo in "east grapevine" (according to him) and he just kinda let me out of the trunk and we walked into his place. A bunch of his roommates were there, they were really nice and suggested we all play a game. But I was still so weirded out by everything, and I realized that I think the kidnapping is supposed to be some foreplay to sex, and I kinda did and kinda didn't want that. I mean, I wanted to be scared and get hurt. I wanted everything seem as nonconsensual as possible. But this wasn't that, and I didn't want to fuck the guy. So I was just at this random guy's house... bored and confused and conflicted as to what I actually wanted.