A Hot Mess of Dreams Bundled Together

Date: 9/21/2019

•I'm driving home to Purcellville. I run into this young women, i feel like she's my mom. Some things happen that I don't remember and we hug, but I push my neck into her mouth as we hug, forcing her to kiss my neck. It feels warm and pleasant, she pulls away, slightly uncomfortable. Shes not my mom. I leave, with a bookcase in the back of the truck I'm driving, my mom handed it off to me. As I'm driving I see the bookcase is full of books and in concerned they'll fall out as I'm driving, but continue anyway... I think I'm almost home, but it's actually two hours away, so I pull up a podcast/story to listen to. I need to use my phone but it's for some reason in the back seat of my (now) car and I can't reach it without fear of crashing because I'm on a busy road at night. •I get home and I go into my small room (my last real house in Lake Caroline) to find it a disaster. There are boxes of cut up ham in ziplock bags and cheese (I think). I'm frustrated because I'm tired if people puting things in my room and leaving it for me to clean up. I ignore it and put my Bluetooth headphones in my ears and get into this hanging tan colored cotton swing/hammock. I get comfortable and lay back. -I talk with Natalie, she's stuck up, wont clean it up. She put it there. I meet a foreign guy being housed in our house. Turns out they were friends, but broke their friendship up. He helped her clean her books up but not the ham, that's why she put it in my room. I asked him to help me clean it up, he gave me an answer without saying no then went out to the porch to socialize, but really we was saying no he wouldn't help me. I'm thinking the right thing to do would just to clean it up myself, that's the Christian thing to do. But I don't do it. I ask Natalie, but she's acting stuck up and won't help me. Natalie used to have a double chin but now she's lost weight and is getting dressed up really fancy. I eventually see Natalie, from like a camera view looking out a large window, she's slim, dressed in an elegant dress, large hat, and looks very fancy. Next, a lady who's supposed to be my mom (but doesn't look like my mama) sends something in the mail to a new foreign guy she's housing. The letter asks if he wants a lady in bed (basically). Then, he opens the box and suddenly "my mom" is in bed with him, then she's an old guy, still wearing the same flirtatious and thin clothes she was, and the foreign guest was horrified as he sees his hairy man legs under a veil, unsure what to do. Then he noticed the mom behind the older guy, dress for pleasure. All very creepy. The last image I saw before I actually got out of bed was... Me, with a slim, soft, beautiful body. My stomach was well molded. I puffed my chest out and felt my stomach with my hands and I was very pleased.