Black Shadows

Date: 6/29/2019

I knew I was dreaming, but I couldn't do anything about it. It seemed so so real despite it's absurdity. I absolutely must preface this. It was 10 AM of yesterday, June 28. I had gone back to sleep because it's summer vacation for me and I had ft something strange. As soon as this happened I knew I was dreaming, but that didn't stop what happened next. It felt like shadows were creeping all up and down my body. Mainly grabbing me by the neck and my wrists, pinning me to my bed. This on it's own is scary enough, but it also hurt. I don't actually remember it hurting, but I remember knowing that there was pain if that makes any sense. Like the synapses in my brain that fire when I feel pain were definitely going off, but I don't actually remember feeling the pain. What I do remember, however, is how tight the shadowy tendrils were. Despite being shadows they were actually tangible things encapsulating me. Constricting me. Trapping me in my own bed. They weren't tied down to anything, they weren't trying to kill me, yet I could not roll over nor move. I was stuck in place in the middle of my mattress. All I could do was struggle. Then I felt a little pin prick in my side, and something push into me. It was a needle. A syringe to be exact. What was this unknown injecting into me? I didn't see it, but I somehow knew that it was one of my former crushes. My first crush actually. That was painful too, I squirmed and whimpered but was unable to fully scream out for some reason. I'm not sure if it was the struggling or the pain that tired me out, but I was tired, panting like I just ran a marathon when that pain disapated. It then happened a second time, this time being a different crush I had. Then a third with another crush, then a fourth and a fifth, all the way until it got through all seven of the crushes I've had since the age of (I think) ten up until now. Seven crushes in six (ish) years all injected into me for some weird reason. Like I felt the entirety of their bodies inside me, shrunk down to fit my dimensions. They were all my size, perfect fit at the head all the way down to my toes. I felt cramped and even more trapped within my own space. A bunch of different kinds occupying the same exact shell. The oddest thing about this is that the entire time my eyes kept opening and closing. Like I was waking up and falling back asleep, still writhing for freedom. It was half waking dream half partially-lucid one. This is the freakiest thing: Throughout the rest of the day yesterday, I felt those shadows behind me. It felt like they were still wrapped around my arms and growing tighter on my neck, starting to trickle their way up to my face this time. I was in the car during about an hour drive and fell back asleep. The only thing I saw was those tendrils wrapped around me in bed. I woke up again and still couldn't shake that feeling. I'm hoping that writing about this in here somehow gets them to go away, because not only do I have a bad feeling that they're gonna crop up again tonight, but that they're going to cause sleep paralysis.