Driving

Date: 2/22/2019

I'm driving and I feel so free. I'm feeling good and the weather is nice and breezy. I'm going over a thin bridge and there's water all around. It's really beautiful - this is something I've wanted to see for such a long time. A car rear ends me, but it doesn't feel like it was too bad and there's nowhere to pull over yet. I get off the bridge, pull over, and the person is now nowhere to be seen somehow. It's just a small dent. I carry on with my fun little solo road trip. I pass so many nice little towns and different people. Later as it gets dark out a car drives into mine when trying to merge lanes. I get knocked off the road. My car tumbles through some trees down a hill. I feel like I'm bumping around in the dryer or something. I can't imagine the damage my car is receiving. Air bags are going off. I feel stupid for going on this trip. How will I explain my car to my parents? The car lands in a lake. I barely make it out of the car through the door but I am drowning. I feel my lungs as if they're going to explode. It's so painful. I can't breathe. It simultaneously feels like I'm thrashing around frantically but also as if I'm not moving at all. The whole car has gone under. I can't hold my breath anymore and I'm coughing and swallowing water. My head is in so much pain. Everything is dark and spinning. It feels like my head and my lungs should really explode now, and from the pain at this point I wish that they would just get it over with and pop. My head, ears, and chest feel blocked. There's no room inside me for air. The darkness becomes pitch black. Somehow even darker. The pain and everything else starts fading away. It all feels far away. Empty.