Over My Ex

Date: 8/7/2018

The other night I dreamt that I packed a silver Nissan (supposedly my ex boyfriend’s car but not actually his car in real life, though he did drive a black Nissan Altima) full of things that had something to do with my ex boyfriend H.A or our relationship. There were bags full of stuff. One of them was a bag full of empty prescription bottles. The car was packed. I drove it to my ex’s house. When I got there he was outside and he thought that I was coming back to be with him. I said no, you’re an ok guy but that’s not what I’m here for. I then basically emptied the car of everything, giving it to him or putting it on his lawn or in the dumpster. I even left the car there, and then I walked back home or found another way home. In the dream, I felt absolutely amazing to rid myself and my life of all these things that reminded me of him or us. I felt confident, happy, and renewed. In real life, my mom said prescription bottles relate to health and that perhaps I have finally moved on from this relationship. It’s weird because in real life I already felt that I moved on as this relationship ended over three years ago, but maybe subconsciously I didn’t. I’ve also been working through past trauma and relationships in counseling, so perhaps that’s helping me subconsciously as well. My sister said maybe it means I won’t be in a toxic relationship again like this one was.