Piece of mind

Date: 1/20/2020

Was I this dorm type place, and was talking to cole but weirdly he seemed to not like me at first, the more we talked and hung out the more he seemed to fall in love with me, going as far to take videos and pictures of me and be with me in this weird auto shop room with a very loud car. He tried explaining how to drive and the different parts of a car to me. I was dumb I didnt know anything about cars. Then on the other hand Andrew and me were becoming very close, we eventually were so close that we sat there holding eachother and talking and being honest and I didnt want to let go. I wanted to feel him and I wanted to hold him. It was firm and heavy and I felt at total peace. Another part of it my dad came in a big room full of people looking for Andrew so he could meet him. He didnt know what he looked like so he couldn't find him. And another part I was buying a bus ticket and a movie ticket at this terminal, it was taking a long time because my barcode wouldn't scan, someone yelled from the line behind me that i should hurry up and i was taking forever. I recognized the voice right away and i smiled so hard and yelled back. He was there in line. We were together a lot and when I had the chance that either me and him or me and cole were apart I was with my brother. I told him that I thought they were both falling in love with me. He said I was imagining it and to be more realistic. That all of it didnt mean anything. That I was being delusional. I remember that embrace so clearly. It felt so firm, so safe, so real. And I want to feel it, but only in my mind will that be a reality.