my alcoholic

Date: 8/23/2016

My parents got a divorce because ones an alcoholic and the others a workaholic and you'd think it would work out because they never see each other, but it didn't and I got the shit end of the stick. My dream was basically re living my past with my mom and dad and the divorce. My dads a millionaire and I say that seriously and my mom never really graduated high school... She's just super pretty. Anyway growing up my parents never were around each other and my mom took care of me. It was nice and then just me and my mom moved to a different state and my dad was to busy on work to notice. Fast forward to the divorce my mom was using child support to help pay for her lawyers in court and my dad stopped paying for the 2.8 million dollar mansion (which I thought was uncalled for to buy in the first place because it was only my mom and I) anyway it was Christmas and my mom has been sober for about 5 months because of the divorce and all and she couldn't afford to get me Christmas presents because of paying for court and she just cried... I knew at that point she felt defeated and broken so I did the only thing I could think of and that was hug her... Even though when she gets drunk she beats me and cusses at me she is still my mom and that was that. I still loved her. When I went to my dads for Christmas he bought me a pony (a real breathing pony) and lots of other things that were uncalled for but that's that. About a month later my mom literally gave up on me. She filed for zero custody and disappeared. I haven't seen her in 5 years and now I still feel really sad. And I felt sad last night too... I think I cried in my sleep if that's possible. 😳😭