wake up rage

Date: 6/15/2026

i woke up in a thought rage today and starting mumbling out loud how much i hate someone (their actions) and will never be with them and can't believe i ever fucking wasted so much time loving them and then was like well why can't i stop then and then i was like bc it's not him that i'm longing for, it's my true partner, and i know my true partner is out there somewhere and he's gonna be everything i deserve and since this person isn't that then it's just gonna have to be that way because i refuse to settle or to romantically love someone, even from afar, who doesn't give any fucks about me whatsoever the point of too much water under the bridge is such a weird phrase bc it's like, when someone says "it's water under the bridge" it's like, it's fine, we can work through that. but when it's too much water under the bridge it threatens to flood the bridge. i guess that's why when they say "too much" water under the bridge it becomes... we cannot come back from this and i'm not even someone who thinks that way but it's not like i can do anything about it. i have to move on oh and i just remembered the dream i actually had was a lesbianish dream 😂😂😂 not gonna say the details publicly but it was really cuuuuute and romantic omg happy pride month and remember birose and aroace spectrum ppl do exist 😇😘