Bad Naps Happen 3 Times 😥 Any Advice On How To Sleep Better and Quicker? Thank you.

Date: 10/15/2019

I have a problem. My mind wanders into a deep trance. Whats causing this? How long have my eyes been open? Were they closed the entire time I was awake? Or were they open and I didnt sleep at all? Many questions jumped into my mind and went out with no answers. I think to myself on how horrible, annoying , upsetting, disappointing and all the words that arent define as happy , proud, and yay are the feelings in my soul. I believe that we have the free will to do anything we want. However maybe fate is a factor to it or the other way around? A million other thoughts raced into my head. Stop thinking I tell myself constantly. But that doesn't work. It never works. Or at least this time anyway. I see the clock and its midnight. I freak out. Million more thoughts come in and out. I panic. Maybe I need to go to the bathroom? I do so. I lay in bed. On my back. I heard it was good for sleeping. I close my eyed. Loosen up. But I can still my position tighten. Especially my mind. I wish not to think. It turns out as a failure. I try to not cry. Crying may help or worsen my goal to have a good nights rest. Tears run down my face quickly. I wipe them with my t-shirt. The cycle goes on over and over again. In the end I ask my mom to sleep with me. She does. I hear crickets chirping. I hear my mom sleeping. I hear my thoughts yelling. I give up. I stop the cycle. Close my eyes. Try to sleep. I do. But I dont know how long. Stuff usually are in my eyes when awake from a GOOD night rest. I dont see alot. My eyes aren't sticky. I wish more then ever they would be closed shut. Proving I slept peacefully. This whole nightmare in real life has happen 3 times so far. I want it to stop. Please comment down below on any Information Tips Advice Thoughts On to SLEEP BETTER and QUICKER Thank you for your time