I hate being left at Christmas .

Date: 6/26/2016

Dave and I were shopping . And fighting it must have been after we split. We went through one place where there was a closed cafeteria somewhere he grabbed something from a closed cafeteria and I saw two Tim Hortons style mini muffins and grabbed those . I didn't pay for them but somehow knew I wasn't going to get in trouble either l We argued out the door about him leaving me alone at Christmas again. I almost died the las time from a systemic infection after a cancer surgery . ( yes that was in the real world ) we were walking outside to a place where he had bought boots before and he needed a pair. I did too but was not amused because I was broke and couldn't afford to clothe myself. I was wearing stuff but it was old and not exactly going through last much longer. I was still pissed at something he said when we started looking at Christmas Decos . I was getting po'ed bevcause we we pre walking through isles and the garlands were sticking to my scarf and jacket . Suddenly I hear him say " You're not the only one and see him also retrieving his gloves from a garland that had pulled it off. Then we were walking through isles with high end chocolates which I kind of wanted particularly if I was going to be alone. We started waking through the ultra high end home decor and seen stuff like marble cabinet doors, and Gage's and measures, Then a demo of an enclosed clock cycling clear oil with silver chrome finishes. It also had flecks of platinum leaf paint floating in the oil inside pumped arrpund the clock. It was flat and wall mounted but in a crystal display wall mount there was also a massive one projecting a water feature above our head. We walked through another isle and I realized I was in some sort of chair and knew it was for my mobility and I loved shopping there because they knew about my disability and provided this gliding chair for this reason. I was near floor coverings that were very need ideas but I knew what they were likely worth . Tens of thousands per room when the sales clerk looked and recognized us. She knew we had been a couple and thought we still were . Dave was doing this awk run away from a problem look then disappeared because he said I dunno, then looked at me and said do you wanna answer this one . The clerk said I'd be very interested on the thoughts a friend of Dorothy man has on Christmas. I said I much prefer to think of it as its pagan Saturnia fest .. Where everyone was welcomed. And looked around at the opulence I was surrounded by ...then woke ...