Todd Howard, nervous date, in jail with Joaquin Phoenix

Date: 5/7/2025

I got a callback from Todd Howard to address a complaint about Starfield, which I wasn't expecting at all, but apparently it was part of Bethesda's campaign to revitalise the game and earn back consumer trust. Anyways, I was so taken aback that when I actually had to talk to Todd I praised Oblivion Remastered instead of explaining how unoptimised both Oblivion Remastered AND Starfield was for my PC. This was all while I was hanging out at a fishing village. Second dream had something to do with me being interested in dating a guy at a coastal café but I was way too excited and nervous so when my mom came to talk to me about something I was drinking a beverage (probably tea that had gotten cold) that I kept spilling all over the place as I giggled for no reason and struggled to act cool and okay. Third dream I was a female detective in a cinematic dream who had apparently been digging too deep into human trafficking and/or government conspiracy and ended up in prison for something I never did, my identity was stolen and changed similar to "The Net" (1995). Anyways, this prison facility held both male and female prisoners even though they had their own sleeping quarters. I ended up striking a relationship with one of the male inmates who was literally Joaquin Phoenix. He was a weirdo, but very influential and respected/feared by the men. He was in prison for a couple of years at that point and I'm pretty sure he was a murderer of some sort. Anyways, we quickly clicked. I assumed we were having a more casual transactional relationship that involved sex, but he was interested in something more serious which surprised me. I felt I had low self-esteem and felt used because of my past experiences with male colleagues in the force - men I trusted who either turned on me or gave up on me - but Joaquin listened to my story and gave me some solid advice and ideas and told me about a possible loophole that could get me out of jail. After we finished talking and the men and women had to disperse, he kissed me, which was a surprise because he didn't show emotion and spoke to me very respectfully and impersonally. On my way back to women's quarters I watched as he talked to some guys and showed them "contraband", hidden razors, which impressed the inmates and made me realise what an influential and intelligent figure he was, how lucky I was to have caught his eye and how I may benefit further from my association with him, at least in prison, because I wasn't quite sure if I was safe with him or not, if he's a psycho or misunderstood and in the wrong place like me. Anyways, when I returned to the women's quarters, there was a check up. Apparently somebody had done something and now the prison guards were looking for anything suspicious and anyone who was disobedient. We had to do pushups and show our teeth. A couple of Ukrainian women were accused of something and taken away and my irl knowledge of Russian (which was their language) helped understand the gist of what they were saying and I told a fellow inmate that the women were found to be in possession of anti-capitalist nihilist/atheist literature which was apparently not allowed. And apparently it was a translation of an original English text which had gained notoriety on the internet, so there's some kind of near-future dystopian element to the dream. Finally I ended with a fourth dream where a friend of mine replied to some of my messages on Discord lol.