seriously gross

Date: 2/11/2022

I had a really long nightmare, so I don’t remember every bit of it, but I do remember the last part. In the last part of the dream, I had gotten a phone call from my dad. When I picked up and answered, he confessed to me that he had been sleeping with one of my sisters for a while now. I didn’t make a huge reaction to it, but instead, calmly hung up and decided to drive over to his house. When I got there and was let inside, I was just about to try and discuss the situation civilly with my dad… but once I saw my sister enter the room… something broke loose inside of me. I began to get really, really angry. Suddenly, I was arguing, yelling, insulting, threatening, etc… I shamed them both for having sex and having an incestuous relationship. I even told their secret to my dad’s wife, who was in the house with them. I remember calling my grandmother (my dad’s mother) and tearfully telling her everything too. Basically, I exposed their entire… thing… going on. Weirdly enough, however, my dad’s wife was somewhat calm(?). It was like she was just too overwhelmed by my behavior in that moment and wasn’t sure how to react. Maybe she dissociated or something. The same happened with my grandmother too: she sounded a little more heartbroken, yeah, but when I told her everything on the phone, her first response was complete silence. Was she that shocked? There’s not much else to say, except for the fact that my sister was infuriated with me and yelled back at me the entire time. She defended the relationship with her whole heart, but I just wasn’t having it. They weren’t even, like, dating. It was a purely sexual relationship. So, why was she defending it so passionately? Anyway, long story short… this was a really intense dream for me. When I woke up from it, I felt myself drifting back to sleep, but I immediately forced myself to stay awake just so my brain wouldn’t continue the dream. This was all SO disgusting. I’m glad it’s over.