New Girlfriend

Date: 8/6/2018

I’m with HL. I know I can’t truly be with him. He wants to be with me too. I tell him the best I can do is close friendship. He finds a new girlfriend. I see him sitting with her in the grass. She has her head on his shoulder. I’m jealous but I have no right to be. I knew this day would come. I feel ill, but I look at her and note she looks just like me! So much so that she could be my twin! I can’t be mad. I take satisfaction though in that her personality cannot be the same as mine. I talk to him. I feel better. I try to be a friend and accept his girlfriend. I know he would drop her if I ever changed my mind and decide to have him. He tells me that, too. I pity her, because she has no chance. He has her, but she doesn’t have him, and she never will. His heart belongs to me. That relationship won’t last. It was dead on arrival.