Class

Date: 8/1/2024

I was in class and Elkass was giving us all noodles for food and it looked seasoned but i couldn’t tell if it had black pepper. I didn’t want to ask so I started to take a bite when the classmate next to me took my plate off my desk and was like wait elkass does this have black pepper, Alessandra is allergic. I appreciated her so much for that. He said it doesn’t and i was like thank you i was about to risk my whole life bc I didn’t want to ask. The hot guy sitting in front of me was saying he thought it was all in my head but now he knows i was being serious about my allergy ( i haven’t seen any of these people since my freshman year of college) we laughed about it and talked about my glasses. we also both signed up for a JROTC program because the school required us to and he said we’re gonna have to do color guard type of drills over the weekend for 2 hours as a requirement for the class. I was like whaaat no way but also hehe bc he was hot. I was on instagram and I saw Nick (gay guy from highschool) posted a long time ago about how there was a dumb girl named Alessandra and she was so stupid. I kept reading thinking this couldn’t possibly be about me since we were good friends for years. As I kept reading I realized he was talking about me and how I was a terrible person (based on what he heard other people (Katie) said about me. which she lied A LOT for no reason to a bunch of people about me). I felt hurt because he posted this right when he met me. Obviously his opinion of me has changed over the years but seeing that post was a stab in the chest. I think I had that dream because of all the trauma and exclusion. and bullying i went through as a child Also later we were at a pool party thing back with the same people in my college class with professor Elkass and i dropped my heart glasses without realizing it and people stepped on it so it was barely usable and now I had to buy another pair online. my hair was also constantly in my pink hair towel when i was talking to the hot guy and i kept taking it off like wtf why do i have this ugly ass towel on my head and it kept reappearing and I had to keep taking it off so it didn’t look like a chef hat LOL