Not coming...

Date: 6/1/2021

There was a huge truck... We were gonna use it for something. It was almost like a puppy, a pet. But it landed in the snow so close to being on top of me it got my coat. My coat was clear - like a raincoat - and I had to scramble to grab it before the truck chewed it up and probably broke. Like maybe it was a garbage truck... But one that ate garbage at the back base of it, like a wood chipper only with rotating blade like teeth. Anyway I went to the hospital I was so rattled. They got me in and it was them that offered to get my ex. Apparently she was a nurse there and it was a curtsey they did for anyone who had an ex working there. I waited in my room. My grandma arrived with a bunch of relatives and her very very large service dog. The hospital tried to keep it out - because it was easily the size of a bear - but she insisted he went where she did. My ex never came. I stayed in my room waiting and waiting. I waited with someone, a friend or a mutual acquaintance between us... Or maybe a new person. Idk. But finally the hospital informed me she wasn't coming. They said it awkwardly, like it was shameful and they were sorry. I was furious. I had a yard game prepared for us. The lawn was full of fireflies at night, in soft mist and green green grass with dew. We were to capture the firefly lights off them - like harvesting little orbs - and out them in teeny tint glass bottles. To save for later use. But I left the hospital and took the young person I was with... The one who stayed with me, and we didn't instead. However it wasn't the same. It wasn't as special without her. I mean the experience was stil l magical because it was an experience meant to be, designed to be, but it wasn't special anymore. Because it wasn't for us. First the truck we worked so hard on, then this. I was so angry, hurt, outraged. I just fumed.