Ezra lookalike guy that I can't have

Date: 9/14/2023

I can't remember how I met this guy in my dream. I've had a dream about him before. He has a wife/girlfriend/fiance. When she goes out of town, he and I hang out together. He's a pretty nonchalant dude and very respectful. He's suspicious but overall respectful. His appearance and mannerisms remind me a lot of Ezra from PLL. I also do not know his name. Anyways we are driving in the car together and we pass some type of construction or mechanic yard. There are shells of some type of can that they throw out back and if they've been sitting there for a while, they collect dust and the wind will push the dust out of the shell of the can and it'll blow away like a tumbleweed. One of those dust-tumbleweed things passed our car. I asked what it was as I'd never seen such a phenomenon before. He did not answer. So started to look around and answered my own question. He gasped and hurried and turned the car around. I said, "What?". He said your dad is back there. So we find our dad who is standing by the fence we just were driving along. I get out and talk to him and so does the guy. When we are done talking we get back inside and and drive home. It's nighttime at this point. For some reason I am drunk. Either a piece of the dream is missing and I forgot it, or the dream just decided that I'd now be drunk, but either way, I am very drunk. The Ezra lookalike had prepared a blow-up mattress with sheets and blankets for me right in the doorway. His bed was around the corner. It looked like a studio apartment, but it was pretty spacious. I think he just wanted me to sleep in a different room. I thought about how it was respectful of him to sleep in a different bed than me. But I was in love with him and had been for a while, so I wouldn't have minded. But then I had thoughts of guilt about his girlfriend or fiance. After that, I thought about, well, she's away all the time, and he's lonely. I just wish we could be something properly and ethically. I woke up after being put to bed and was very confused as to where I was. But I gathered my surroundings and decided to find out where wannabe Ezra was. I found him sleeping in his bed. Near his bed, a door was cracked open and music was playing. I assumed it was a bathroom or part of his apartment. So I walked in, but I saw a man and a woman in towels getting ready for bed while singing to music. The man turned and just kind of stared at me, and I said, "Oh my god I am so sorry, I didn't realize." The man said, "Yeah our apartments are attached, it's fine." I apologized once more before shutting the door. I noticed I was hungry. I didn't want to wake up wannabe Ezra so I grabbed his car keys. When I was driving the car, it felt very very large and tall and very difficult to drive. It was slow turning. It felt like a toy car. So I kept almost getting into crashes while on the way to wherever I was going. The city was unique too. It reminded me of some animation that could be someone's specific style. Kind of low-key, Spiderverse style, just no neon lights at all. It was very dingy and dark. The dream skipped and shifted and I was now in a crowd of people in some kind of half-circle stadium. I walked around until I found a less populated seating area. I somehow had a White Claw in my hand and was going to enjoy whatever show was going on until some mean girls behind me started harassing me. One girl stole my drink when she thought I was paying attention. So I ran after her and made her give it back. She joined her friends and they started talking shit. One of them decided to throw a punch to my gut but I blocked it and shoved her away so that she stumbled and tripped over a bleacher seat. I grabbed my things and walked across the field and drove home. When I came home, I immediately sat in Ezra's bed on my knees, with my head in my hands, and started crying. He sat up and asked what was wrong. I was crying so much (idk why I was crying this much over such a silly interaction with girls I didn't know) but, I couldn't answer him. I thought about how he didn't want me I'm his bed, so I walked over to my measly air mattress and fetal positioned myself more. I was in such distress that I woke myself up and the dream ended.

AI generated interpretation Dreams often reflect our deepest desires, fears, and unresolved emotions. Your dream seems to revolve around the theme of longing for a connection with someone you are attracted to, but who is unavailable. The presence of the Ezra lookalike represents this unattainable person in your waking life. The dream begins with you spending time with this person whenever his partner is out of town. This suggests a desire to be closer to him, but also an awareness of the ethical implications and guilt associated with pursuing a relationship with him. This internal conflict is further highlighted when you consider his loneliness while his partner is away. The construction or mechanic yard with the tumbleweed-like dust represents the passage of time and the fleeting nature of opportunities. The fact that the Ezra lookalike does not answer your question suggests that he may be withholding something or keeping secrets, adding a layer of suspicion to the dream. The encounter with your father by the fence represents a moment of judgment and validation. It's possible that his presence symbolizes the authority figures or moral values that are influencing your decision-making process in this situation. As the dream progresses, you find yourself drunk, which can be interpreted as a way to escape or numb yourself from the conflicting emotions you are experiencing. The blow-up mattress placed separately from the Ezra lookalike's bed symbolizes a physical and emotional separation, reflecting your desire for a relationship that is both proper and ethical. Your encounter with the couple in the bathroom exposes the notion of boundaries being crossed and the consequences of your actions. The hungry feeling you experience suggests a deeper need or hunger for emotional fulfillment. Taking the car keys and driving the car that feels large, difficult to control, and almost toy-like highlights your struggle to navigate this complex situation, showing the challenges and potential hazards you face in pursuing this relationship. Moving to the stadium scene, the mean girls harassing you represent external forces or inner doubts and insecurities that hinder your pursuit of this connection. However, you manage to stand up for yourself and assert your boundaries, suggesting an emerging strength and resilience in dealing with challenges. Returning home after this confrontation, your emotional distress becomes overwhelming and you break down in tears. This vulnerability exposes your deeply rooted desire for this person's acceptance and affection. The contrast between the Ezra lookalike's bed and your air mattress highlights the emotional distance that exists between you, leaving you feeling alone and in distress. Overall, this dream signifies a conflict between your desires and the ethical implications of pursuing an unavailable person. It highlights the need to navigate your emotions and desires while respecting both your own boundaries and the boundaries of others involved. It also emphasizes the importance of self-expression, asserting boundaries, and acknowledging your own emotional needs.