Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 5/2/2021
By Fitful
Laura is working as security or nurse or some authority in a boarding house tall and white, green yard in the back with pretty trees, a manicured front entrance. I live here and overhear the new male security guard ask her out ... I leave so they can talk privately. It hurts too, to see someone else asking her out. But she hurries to follows me back inside - into the bathroom which she tidies or I tidy its not weird just her job - and says she's more interested in getting back with me. (My mom had been maneuvering us so this happens the entire time.) I say I'm interested in that too, show her the many letters I'd written her, and we're happy if uncertain. Maybe there's a small impediment in the way. We briefly visit the back yard trees, maybe my mom is there. Idk. ~ I'm with a father figure, maybe. A man who takes me and my sister on vacation. We're in a terrible rank hotel, the room given filthy and the mattress so stained its impossible to sleep on. He goes to get something to cover the mattress with and I stay with my sister. She's older than me but beloved. I make popsicles, or I try using two different fridge freezers. ~ Later I'm outside and some neighborhood men are teaching me to fly. I turn into a bird and fly around and they teach me how to Orient, using the sun. But I get turned around. Btw here I am a little boy And then I end up taken by a psychopath. I end up in a horror movie. The man murders two men right in front of me, then mutilates himself, his fingers, chopping off bits and pieces of them so he can get off better while fking me. He feeds those pieces to the men he's murdered or mutilated, who live in a vat of water under a grate. He's going to fk me, then stuff me down the same grate until I'm one of them. But he's tired after cutting off his fingers and leaves for a bit. He says i can do whatever I want while hes gone. I'd been given drugs so I'm wary, I need a drink badly but my mouth is so numb I cant. I try hundreds of cups but they all seem so obvious to poison. I finally get in and fill it with water when the security guard comes in. This is actually a nice man, who wouldn't hurt me, but km so scared I toss the cup of water in him. It ignites into fire and he thinks its oil and freaks out backing away. I play on that threatening to pour ot on him and gain the upper hand. When my captor comes back the security guard is trussed up in a closet somewhere. He, well he's dressed like a madam now, a she with the had and the mauve flowr print dress and gloves and she interrogates me as to what I did while she was gone. The interrogation gets more and more threatening. Apparently little boys are always bad so what bad thing did I do while she was gone? I didn't know what to say, I didn't think trussing up the guard, trying to drink water, or trying to escape was bad.