Pool w B and Nat as Spider-Man

Date: 11/10/2018

We were in a pool with Brendan and his friends and Caro. The rest of my family went to a part inside of a sort of apartment I’ve never seen. Inside, there was a closet with snacks inside. I grabbed the marshmallows. Then I went back outside and into the pool. We were doing a racing or game thing. We were climbing up on something like passable roofs or the platforms between train tracks, but longer and and higher and less safe. I was walking with Nat and I was holding her arm because I was very afraid I was going to fall. She said she was scared too. We passed a prison on the side and I sc recorded and saved it. We finally got to a part that was kinda like a small house. Everyone else passed onto the balcony bridge part and ig we waited. Nat was Spider-Man but she wasn’t dressed up. Outside on the balcony bridge a large group of people probs like the football group were superheroes and they were cheering each other on. I wanted her to go outside as she was, because obvs she’s Spider-Man and the most important. I pulled and pushed her outside and she pulled against me because she didn’t want to go without her full suit. I pushed her outside. When we were outside she pulled me closer and said something like, “If you’re gonna make me do this then (you’re gonna let me do this) or (I’m gonna make you do this)” then she went in to kiss me and I pushed away and back into the home. I don’t remember if I was feeling sad, angry, , upset, a little happy, or neutral. I was thinking about Brendan and about Nat. I remember whisper-telling “You’re too late.” (bc I liked her for only a little bit and I told myself I didn’t like her anymore so she was too late) She told me she wanted to have sex to know if she was good. I was thinking that I’d have to ask my boyfriend because I wanted to.