Does this mean I still like him?

Date: 9/16/2019

After a black out, chocolates and a good looking blonde guy said to the girl beside him that he likes psychopaths. Oddly I was with one average looking guy from arts club he was kinda skinny and tan let's call him John. We accidentally confused a coin for a candy. Then a yatch ride with John's friends a little girl fell off and her mother lectured her about boating fee. They started dancing around as if this was disco and when I looked at John I saw someone else, the only guy I loved in 15 years of my life, the person that wasn't supposed to be there but was who I may have been searching for cause I smiled and shouted "Ashton!"