Always

Date: 1/14/2019

Starts out I grabbed this guy right before he tried to jump off a balcony attempting to kill himself because he killed two other people. I grabbed him by the ankle and pulled him up, then punched him multiple times in the face till he was unconscious. Afterward I walked down and saw Olivia and approached her. I put my arm around her and we started talking. I knew we weren’t together and that she was still with her husband, but she put her arm around me as well and it was just natural and comfortable. We walked along the beach and down thus boardwalk just talking like we were still really close. Like back in high school. As we were walking the sun was beginning to set and as I was staring at the horizon and I asked, “Olivia, do you think that if you never married we would still be together?” She looked at me with her kind eyes and when I met her gaze I knew that she was the same Olivia from high school. As if we were still seniors and I thought she was the one. She looked at me and said, “Unfortunately Walter I don’t think we would be.” I replied, “Why wouldn’t we?” She said back, “Because even though this is a dream, I still love him. And I think I always will. But know that while we were together, it was one of the happiest times of my life. You know I’ll never forget you, and I know you’ll make a girl very happy one day just as you made me.” We looked into each other’s eyes for a few seconds then looked toward the setting sun. We were both leaning on the railing with a slight breeze against our faces. I didn’t feel anger or sadness as I once had years ago. But I felt a release. A release that I can’t really explain. Like a fear of sky diving, but as soon as you jump you know it’s out of your control, and the only thing that matters is you and your parachute opening. And knowing that you have the rest of your life to get it open. I was simply content being out on that boardwalk with her. She was absolutely beautiful in the setting sun. She turned to me and said, “My mom is picking me up at nine. I think I’ll head that way now.” And gave me a kiss on the cheek. I watched her walk away until she blended into the landscape surrounding. I turned around, and right as the tip of the sun met the horizon, I jumped, diving position, into the water. And right as I broke the surface, emerged under the layers of blankets. Alone in my bed