graduation/funeral?

Date: 6/7/2016

- so i told everyone in my family about details for my graduation and we were all pretty stoked abt it. i came to school and it was a week before graduation and the last day. i was dealing with a lot of health issues and mental health problems during the last few weeks of school that i totally forgot to write a graduation speech. apparently everyone had to write a speech and base it on a book (idk...) for their funeral (this is where graduation switches to funeral for some reason). we had a deadline for the speech assignment i didnt even know existed bc i wasnt there the day it was announced. i started freaking out and our teacher (who was literally combination of the worst teachers i ever had lmao) made us read our speeches out loud. once they got to me i was scrambling trying to finish my speech but then my teacher was like nope too late, you dont get to participate in the funeral ceremony + you wont have a tomb in honor of your name and i was like what the fuck!!! i got so angry bc i was dealing with so much shit already and not having a tomb made me feel like i didnt even have a life that was worth remembering. - i had a lil panic attack for a while and accidentally knocked over my friend's food. i tried to help her out but i accidentally pronounced her name wrong and she went off on me bc i didnt say her name right. i really had no excuse for saying her name wrong so i didnt even bother fighting back. - i went to look for school admin to call my teacher out on that bs and no one was there... there was one of my classmates who asked what was wrong and i told her all abt how mr. whatevertfhisnamewas wouldnt let me be a part of the funeral ceremony and she was like that's crazy! and we gathered a bunch of ppl together to petition. i had a pretty heated argument w my teacher and we both went way too far in the argument. he started questioning if i was even of worth bc of the lack of money i had?? and i also called him out on the fact he's 50 and single and he said he was married to a bunch of angels. and i was like lmao okay.. - idek if i did have ceremony by the end..