I Hate My Life

Date: 1/17/2018

I was playing this freaking intense chess game with Elizabeth Goldstein, Jackson Endres and Priya Pindiprolu in this weird school we apparently went and like on Thursdays the aud was open early morning for students. I also think Khulangoo was there. So anyway I had an earlier dream where I was crying and my math teacher was like helping me through my emotional roller coaster in the girl's bathroom. And it was because previously in the dream at home my aunt said "oh I'm temporarily bisexual but I'm getting a surgery later this week to fix that" and I kind of stood there with this fake smile plastered on my face and I hugged her and smiled then walked stiffly through the kitchen and I think my brothers were staring at me because they knew I like both boys /and/ girls and I almost accidentally shouted loud enough for her to hear while talking to my bro Christian that her surgery was pointless and a waste of time. Okay, now, back to the chess thing. While we played I was on my phone checking my report card and I freaked out. Apparently the janitor is allowed to write on my report card too in this dream. So tHis is what he says about me. -sissy -cries too much -infatuated with Jensen Ackles (If you didn't know, Jensen plays the character Dean Winchester in the CW show Supernatural) And there was like a basic description of me that apparently Ms. Pankow put in and it described my sexual orientation (pansexual) and I was beyond pissed that they invaded my privacy like that. Apparently the janitor was watching me from the balcony of the huge auditorium I was in and saw me crying my eyes out when I thought I was alone. I was so fucking pissed that the he was spying on the student body like that. Anyway so like the GSA was having a day where we celebrated trans people and there were a lot of people I didn't know there. Anyway I woke up freaking out thinking it was real (which itself was a false awakening), then woke up AGAIN but for real this time, exactly 10 minutes before my alarm.