A new dad I guess?

Date: 8/21/2019

So first of all, there’s this guy that’s always in my dreams if my dreams are about Tesco. Like if I’m in Tesco. He’s always there too. He’s amazing. In this dream, he was where he always is, in the back end of Tesco which would normally be the alcohol isle. But in these dreams, there’s a section with cheap sweets that he’s in charge of. I’m his favourite for some reason and I normally get big packs for like 20p. Anyway so he’s there. I’ve just entered Tesco with my mum. In this dream I didn’t make the mistake of illegally talking to my dad, instead I was patient and haven’t heard from him. So I am without a dad in this dream. Though I guess I am irl. Can’t rely on Jason to actually be a father figure. Not that he is. I can’t just decide some guy younger than me is my “dad”. But I do love him and everyone else in our fake little family. It’s kinda funny. Anyway- Yeah without a dad. So instead of walking with my mum, I ask to go look at dvds. She says yes but I go to the end isle to see the guy. The annoying thing is, I can never remember his name when I wake up. I’m gonna call him.. Pete. No that’s my uncle. Uhh. Something stupid and temporary like Sky. Haha. Great. So I can kind of picture him? Chubby, neck length hair, smiley, blue eyes, I think brown hair, dungarees for some reason. Blue ones. A red shirt underneath. That’s kinda all I think. A farmer’s cap! A beard. Nice guy. Anyway yeah so Sky sees me and smiles and waves so I return it. I walk over and he asks what I’ve eaten so far. I say I ate something. He laughed and said he knew that was a lie. He said he knows I never ever have breakfast but every now and then I’ll say I have so people don’t complain or worry. Then he said that he realised it was 12:34 and the fact we were in Tesco must mean we hadn’t had lunch yet. I said he was right. We joked about how my mum was probably going to get something I hated or jus wouldn’t get me anything as that’s normally how it goes at lunch. Then he looked really sad. He saw that my mum was at the till and waved a little at her. Then he picked me up onto his back and ran to the fruit isle. He told me to pick up some tomatoes, so I did. Then he ran to the little corner with treats and told me to pick up the double chocolate cookies so I did. Then he ran to the frozen isle and got me to get pizza so I did. Then we went to the tills and qued behind my mum. She asked how I was going to pay for it all when Sky interrupted and said he was getting them for me. So I jokingly said “thanks dad” but it felt right. Like he really felt like a dad. My mum looked kinda mad. Anyway he brought me the stuff and told me not to share it with my sisters because we both knew my mum would get them something if I had something nice. So I thanked him and hugged him. He said I was like a daughter to him so he didn’t mind. I asked how long it would be until my sisters found out and complained they should get to call him dad too and him comply. He said he wouldn’t. He said they annoyed him and that he liked me. So I was touched ha. So then I asked how long it would be until he got bored of me and did this for some other kid. He again said it wouldn’t happen. He gave me another hug but this time I actually felt it? Like it was warm and comfy and safe and I wanted to cry. Then he said he didn’t know when he’d see me next and I woke up. Then I wanted to cry more because I didn’t have that. Which was kinda stupid of me. It’s not like I don’t have a dad. But still. Idk. It was nice.