LGBT dream?

Date: 8/21/2016

I've always been confused if I'm gay or not... I mean I really like the way girls bodies look but they can just be so cruel and I'm kinda scared to interact with them. And guys, if they have a good body and a great smile.... I mean who couldn't? But then... The prostate... Gawdddd. It's so weird. And jocks are assholes, even though I'm a jock myself and get a long better with the opposite gender than myself. So this dream I was basically experimenting and it was weird and I didn't know what I liked or anything like that. When I change in the locker room im insecure but I love but admiring people's bodies and in the weight room is like.... Unbelievable. And at this new school I can't let anyone know. It's weird and hard and I don't want them knowing me or my past. I'm scared to get judged and no one seem to talk to me anyway. The loneliness of school always seems to tap into my dreams somehow... Maybe in my dream I'll get the guts to tell them about my past, about me... And maybe they will like me... Hopefully 😖🤗