He's mine

Date: 12/2/2019

My dream starts outs with me going about my daily life. My friend from another country (lets call him J) is coming to the US to visit, so I'm just getting things ready before he gets here. He and I have a complicated history and we talk a lot, well recently not so much since we're both busy. We have another mutual friend (lets call her stella) . She's alright. So I find her talking to my sister for guy advice and I get curious so I sit in to see who the lucky guy is. Stella says they've been talking more and more and she starting to have feelings for him. I ask who and turns out its our mutual friend, J. She asks me if when J and I talk, does he talk about her. I tell her the truth and say not really, he mentions you, but not in that way. Stella doesn't wanna hear it and just kinda rolls her eyes and leaves the room. I get this panic in my chest. She'll try to make a move on J and what if it works. Jealousy is all I feel. Stella is alright on the eyes, she's cute, opposite style to me, who can come off as intimidating at times. I panic. But even in this panic I try to think. I start devising plans to make sure Stella never gets her chance. He's mine. He always has been. We both had feelings for each other in the past but due to distance and other complications it wasn't going to work. I had decided to be just his friend. But now here I was, jealous of Stella and not ready to lose J to someone else. I called J later that evening and casually brought up Stella. He didn't really have anything to say about her, which was good and calmed me a bit. J had wanted to experience a girls night in and I had plans to do one with our friends, but he also brought up wanting to have one, just the two of us. In the past I denied it, but this time I brought it up again and told him we should definitely have one just ourselves too. I was never going to let Stella have her chance. I would spend as much time as I could with J and when we were alone, either tell him I can't be friends with him and fuck his brains out, or make him fall back in love with me so he only saw me and Stella would just be a background character as always. I felt evil. There was just an evil feeling surrounding the dream. It ended there.