Yet another crush who doesn’t exist *sigh*

Date: 8/1/2021

I was in the mall with my sister, and we were heading towards the build-a-bear store. It was very familiar, as kids were making fun of how we dress while we were just minding our business (which happens all too often) Anyways, once we get in there, we notice there’s this weird system that someone talks on a radio while that same person is viewing the customers on a camera (totally not a sketchy build-a-bear) My sister carries a bag from a Japanese brand, and noticed there was the same one hanging from a coat hanger. It happened to be the guy’s who was working there. Very quickly he shifted his position to security to working on the floor. Any chance he got, he would talk to us. We got along easily because we shared a lot of the same interests. He had messy dirty blonde hair, probably glasses, and a cute child-like but still attractive face. Also kinda awkward. Rather cute if I say so myself. I forgot his name but I know it started with a C, so his name is now C. When the store closed, I accepted his offer of going with him. A friend of his, who was pretty high, was driving. While we were in the car, I jumped out at the nearest red light because I genuinely did not want to get in a car crash. A few minutes later, as I was walking towards a store, I saw the two smoking [cigarettes] by the side of the road. It seemed they had parked the car and waited for me, expecting me to have walked that way. C looked really cool out of his work clothes. He asked if I still wanted to go with him, to which I accepted again. We decided to go into the store because why not? Despite being late, this store was still open. It had a 99 cent store vibe but it was pretty fun honestly. At some point, it seemed that C knew some people who were there so we kinda all joined together. C and I were pretty much always together. I felt like I had known him for so long. While strolling around the store, someone poked fun at us saying “look at how you guys are walking together so closely!” suggesting we liked each other or something. They were mostly targeting C, who became flustered and nervous. In turn, I snapped back at that person. Like always, dream me is very bold. If this were really to happen, I would probably react just like C. I thought it would be cute to buy a disposable camera to remember everyone I met. It’s a common theme in my dreams that I want to take pictures of my new dream friends. What seems to be the next day, I see C in front of what looks to be my front yard. I greet him, and he greets me back. He seemed almost to show to greet me first. Again, there are friends here. C brought his dogs, who happened to love me very much. I could feel him watching me play with one of his dogs, who was very large and fluffy. I took out my camera and tried it out by taking a picture of myself. It came out blurry because I guess I didn’t know how to use it. Now it gets weird. Unfortunately. Slight TW. a man stood in front of a car, holding a gun in his hand. Inside the car was a panicked man at the wheel. It happened too fast. The man shot through the window and then at himself, killing the man in the car instantly. I’m not sure if the shooter died. Everyone noticed this, but no one was more upset than C. I guess he knew the man in the car? Because he was losing his shit. Both me and the guy who drove the car the previous night were both trying to calm him down. He was both angry and upset, which is something I did not want to see. I don’t know what happened after that, but maybe I don’t want to. Seeing C like that broke my heart to pieces. It doesn’t sound much like it, but I truly think that if the dream was longer, we would probably be mutually crushing (if we weren’t already) I wouldn’t know because I don’t crush on people irlƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ