Overwhelmed

Date: 5/4/2018

Precursor - On April 12, my roommate committed suicide. I was sitting in my living room and suddenly my roommate comes barging in through the door. He's very upset and angry and I just know it's because of all of his bottled up emotions. He is hysterical because he feels nobody is understanding him or what he is going through mentally. He starts throwing things, which begins to scare me. Nothing I say is calming him down. I'm afraid if I try to give physical comfort, he will turn his anger on me. He picks up my most valuable items, such as my laptop and hurls it against the wall, where it smashes into pieces. I ask him to stop again and he looks at me. stomping over to where I am sitting on the couch, he grabs me on either side of my head and starts screaming in my face. I can see his pain written all over his, but I don't know how to help. I feel helpless and scared. He then starts to gag, making retched sounds. This yellow bile starts oozing from his mouth dripping down towards my face. I know I should move but my body remains still in shock and fear. (I have never been a fight or flight person. I always freeze.) I watch as this detestable liquid advances towards me. And then, I wake.