happy 20th birthday to myself

Date: 8/21/2020

i had a birthday and it was just a normal day and i didn’t get one text or call or happy birthday from anyone, not even my parents. then two days later we were in san juan or something and we were on the beach and i got a snapchat and it was all of my friends at the beach in california having a good time while i was “stuck” with my parents at another beach without my friends. i was listening to a really interesting and spooky podcast playlist kinda thing. then my mom came out with a cake for us and we sat at a table and everyone was talking and distracted already so i cut myself a slice and started eating it and my mom said to me without even looking at me “oh you can just start eating it don’t wait for us” and like i was so sad and alone and felt like nobody cared about me at all even enough to pretend to care. it was my 20th birthday too, i dunno i just felt so distant and like i was just alone.