Mom Dying

Date: 4/15/2019

I supposed my mom wanted to die, she was in the hospital for something when they told her they could just "put her down" She was happy to die I had no time to process, and within three hours she was dead. Instead of watching her be killed I went to hang out with my friend, Toby, he was a lovely distraction, until I went back to the hospital. Toby and I kicked around in some bushes and woods and dirt and mud. He loved it, and it kept me busy. When I went back to the hospital, my mom was laying on the table, drained of life. I remember wondering how I was going to pay rent all alone by myself, and then realizing I was all alone.