Where do I belong?

Date: 5/10/2021

I dreamt that I was in a weird and originally I was this fairly handsome Asian guy. And basically he was his dad’s very fancy ny apartment (idk what they’re called). Idk if his dad wanted him too,or like what rly caused him to, but he left the apartment got to this really fancy frat boy part being held in a certain part of the building. So he is there and he is keeping himself low profile for the being. But something happens either he is like wanted by someone, or he like knocks into someone or “flirts” with the hosts girlfriend, but ppl are getting rowdy. They are like starting to fight and then I manage to escape into the crowd so the host guy is like “yeah wait for it you will regret this happened. And I, (the Asian guy) start trying to hide myself so I put makeup on and then I become me (sadie or like dream version me). So now the atmosphere is different. The lights have been darkened and like ppl are hanging in these nets and it changed from being in a apartment to being in some like mall or like busy people pace with people (except it the only people were the party people and there were a lot of them). So I’m hiding and the host guy is like “CHECK UR PHONES EVERYONE, ONLY THE FAKES WILL STICK OUT” so the girl next to me is like a little drunk and seems to right away think I’m the fake. She giving me stupid faces and checking over my shoulder so I’m frantically trying to make it seem like it I’m not the one they are looking for. However as I’m scrolling through my phone, I open a messages from mom and dad and it’s like a voice messaged of them talking to us and saying they love us , and the girl next to me is like “ahaha I knew it you thought you could hide” so then others around me start circling around being like “he’s over here). Then there is a disturbance and people are starting to run away. There is some screaming but mostly people seem really eager to get away. So in this commotion I decide it’s my chance to escape as well. So now me and a crowd of people are just blinding running down the stairs if this building through like a kind of dirty abandoned apartment. And we are running but something at the bottom of the stairs caused us to run back up, so it’s like there is something dangers at the top and bottom. And the group around me starts to dwindle out. And then I’m just trying to stay low profile figure out wtf is going on. So the some how I don’t remember how I find my way into this like survivor group and they have torches and such. They have no idea what is going on, they try to stay call and they want to find a away out. So again we are running up stairs (I’m making sure I’m in the middle) in a fairly big group of people. And I start to see what is happening, like I see this giant wolf man that looks terrifying and deformed. And just people being picked out of our group again as we frantically run away. Again our group gets picking out one by one and I see more terrifying things. Eventually I find or like it’s my same group but way smaller and a couple of new smarter people joined an they’re like, “if we see a monster we hide, they will kill us”. So now there are like hallways and vending machine spots in this building we’re we could potentially hide, however it’s still dangers since the monsters could be hiding there (and by this time we’ve seen snake people, vsmpires, and all other stuff so we are getting a better idea of what’s happening) so our group is still on the move but they are stopped by group of like vampirish people, and that host guy from earlier is in it. He doesn’t attack right away, he is just talking and taunting the leader of our group. But I decide to try and make a run and hid from the vamps (I think it’s because I was on my own for a little because everyone around me died, so I knew that these creatures weren’t diplomatic, they just wanted to kill, however I do think the others in my group understood just how bad the situation was). So as I go to hid I hear and see my group get killed and I’m on my own again, that is until members of my group come back however now they are just the same as the host guy. And so I try and slip back in and pretend I’m also like them. The others don’t rly care but the leader is like, alright guys idrk what happened but, we need to go rn I hear more ppl. Then as we are running I somehow get next to her and she’s like “you probably have to transform too, right now your weak and this is probably your best chance at survival. Nothing much changed with us but we are much stronger now”. So then I too become like them. As we are running she is like, “ we maybe be monsters but that doesn’t mean other monsters will accept us, I think is everyone for themselves. Monsters kill monsters as well”. We are running back down again and we run into another group that tried to attack us but we run past them and kind of escape, but then we get to a spot that’s very dark and there are only three people of our group left, and we are all close friends. So I’m like “we need to leave”, but my friends are like “they’re not even doing anything. But like I can feel they are dangerous. And like next like I expected they attack us, but they aren’t dying because turns out they are plastic oversized even dolls THAT ARE UGKY N KINDA SCARY. So I tell my friend to get a lighter and I start melting the dolls. Then me and my one friend left make a run for it and this time we actually get out, however it’s in this place that has like a yard, and then a big mansion. So from there idrk know what happens, but somehow I get into this river that is like surrounding the mansion, and I try to swim away, but I run into a group of people that are going to hurt me so I run away. And like I get into the mansion and just kind of hid somewhere and sleep. Then it’s finally day time, but again I don’t really know what happened I think all the others disappeared in the day, and then I like talked to the owner of the house and he was like “ho ho ho noice enjoy ur stay” but the day didn’t last long and it was night again. And there was like a lot of long seems of me just like walking or getting somewhere so I’m trying to make this as short as possible. Ok so now fast forward, there was a girl in the group I saw earlier in the river, and she was the doll lady from earlier I burned, and somehow I found her again, but now she wanted to team up. So yeah we teamed up and we’re are trying to find a way to leave. And I’m like “this is all crazy, like there has to be a better life. Also somehow I either go in the river again, or it was from the first time (I think it was from the first time) I hide behind this rock. (Wait yeah first river trip I find this big rock) now I call my friend and I was like “blah blah quantum physics can I get out of here?” And he’s like “blah blah yeah theres is this stone that is the world you are in, your world is the bad world. If you flip the rock over it will change your worlds, but I can’t guarantee it’s better however it’s likely to be better that whatever this is”. So I tell my friend (and I think we’re like gf and gf now) I need to get to this rock, but when we leave this won’t be the same, like We might not remember each other. We’re sad but she’s like nah we need to do this. OK FUCKING FINALLY, I get to this rock and there are like 2 on has these colorful gems on it and the other is a large flattish boulder floating in the river, and it has like the earth in it with like clouds and everything. And there is two sides of the rock on one side, and I guessed out world was the side of the earth that was greyer than the other. So I take my time and prepare myself, and then I try to flip the boulder over. And then eventually I do it and then I wake up on the beach. And I see people from the other world playing in the ocean together. (In the other world there was this group of people that was brutal and wanted to kill everyone “which was actually the group my gf was from” and that is who is in the water”) so I go in and expect them to remember me and try to attack me, but when I get to them there’s this blonde girl and she’s like “hey there?”. They don’t remember me, and now they are just a normal group of teens. And I’m like “hey” and I walk up and then suddenly I’m just overwhelmed with anger and I grab her and just punch her face over and over and over until she’s all bloodied. And the scene cuts as I see her all bloodied uo and he head hanging back (she wasn’t dead just in shock). And I’m in the beach with this confused girl who I guess I told her I was a friend of hers. And I’m just sitting at this like outdoor bar thing at the beach with the girl next to me. Then somehow to get to this like restaurant. And we are sitting there but there is these too guys that are just chatting away and being kind of loud. And the waitress is like “oh these guys are regulars, they’re good guys though”. Also I don’t remember when this happened (but my character was like feeling lost, they felt like they didn’t belong because this world should be better, but it feels just as terrible in a different way. My character was in a world that wasn’t theirs but they didn’t know how to get to the place they belong so everything felt hopeless) Anyways something about one of the mans seems familiar so I go up and grab his should and he turns around, and it’s jeff. He’s a little drunk and he looks at me and he is like “hehe look it’s teen sadie” (which I’m a little surprised because I thought he wouldn’t know who I was) and I was like “dad it’s me” and he was like “no it’s not my sadie is a baby” and I was like “dad it’s me” and he was like “No, my sadie is a baby eight year old” and he is starting to tear up. But then I start telling him things about himself and his family and I think “this is a world where mom and him never got divorced”. Then I woke up Ok so now some things I liked were my girlfriend and how she forgot me in the new work (she was the friend who was lost and followed me around). I like how the group that tried killing us before was now regular and I beat the shit out of that one girl because I was just so full of emotion. I like those rocks (also I think the monsters were fighting to take all the gems from the table because there were some glowing colorful ones, but there were several that were grey and dull. I like that big boulder l, I think it’s means I still haven’t gotten to the world I belong in. And I like how my subconscious is trying to hurt my feelings somehow with Jeff. It was weird So it’d be cool to make this a story