Vacation/fight/vivid and other worldly

Date: 9/30/2020

Robyn, Lauren, Lauren’s mother and I drove down to Panama City beach for spring break. I remember on the car ride I was so sleepy and I kept blacking out for hours on the ride there, and even when we got there. I came to and saw us driving past the beach, blacked out again, and came to again when everyone was dressed to go to the fair. I remember one of the giant swing rides, everyone wanted to ride it but I was scared. They convinced me, we got up to the top and were about to start spinning and I blacked out again. Suddenly it was dinner, and there were tons of our friends that we met there. Robyn and Lauren were wearing matching outfits, and I was so upset I was left out. This house we were staying at was huge, and I was trying to find my room so I could get dressed as everyone went outside to the deck to eat dinner. I found my room and went to change, and there was this really short guy in my bed just sleeping. He woke up and watched me change, and I was so tired I did nothing about it. I met everyone on the deck, and we started eating dinner. These random people were at the dinner table, like this girl I was not friends with in high school, Gavin from work, all of the delts. It was strange, and something felt off. Over the table was the deck of a condo right across from us, and I looked up to see Olivia, Sydney and Carmella there. I was so shocked to see them, and they ducked back inside. Robyn Lauren and I began to laugh and talk about Olivia. She then showed up at the doors outside of her condo that led to our deck for some reason. A verbal fight occurred, and I confronted her. She said something and pushed me, and I grabbed her hair and brought her to the ground. Both of us were shocked but I guess I had had it from the years of verbal abuse from her and I kept telling her to let go of me because I really would not hold back if she hit me one more time. She stopped, and I got off of her and she ran back inside in tears. The night went on and Robyn and Lauren were happy for me standing up for myself, but when everyone went to bed I sat on the porch and cried. Then Olivia came out, but it wasn’t quite her. It was like this ghostly orb that I was aware that was her, and we began talking. She told me she saw us being friends again one day, and I told her only if she really changed. She was not a good person anymore, especially to me. Then I woke up