My old bestie

Date: 10/26/2019

Ok first I was getting married. It was really exciting and I was planning my outfit. We weren’t having a huge ceremony, just like in real life, we don’t want a big wedding. I have social anxiety anyway and the thought of walking down the aisle with everyone staring at me is very scary, so little tiny ceremony is best. Our wedding was happening outside too. I was picking out my outfit, being thrifty and just buying it at the mall. I didn’t want to wear a big fancy dress, just something cute. I picked out a cute little dress with some stockings. On my way to the wedding I stopped to hang out with my old best friend from childhood. In real life, we stopped being friends after 7 years of friendship because her counsellor said I was a bad friend. Her words, mind you we were like 10 so now as an adult I feel that really cake from her mother. Either way, it was very traumatic for me and I’ve never had a real friend since because I have this fear engrained in me that I’m a bad friend and they’ll just leave. But in the dream, we were friends again for some reason and I wanted her at my wedding. Her mom was there who never really liked me I don’t think and who I now dislike a great deal. My fiancé was there too and we all had pizza and hung out. Then when we were in the living room and I said it’s time to get going my friend said she was pissed. I asked her why and she said she didn’t know. I said “well I’m sorry but I have to go and if you don’t know why you’re pissed there’s not much I can do” to which her mom took great offence and thought I should apologize but I didn’t because she’s the psycho who needs to get her feelings sorted. My fiancé followed me out and we headed to our wedding but then I woke up.